It’s My Wonderful Life

Wow! Was the sermon for me today? Praying, what a big downfall in my life. Yes, I pray. When do I pray? When something goes wrong in my life. I never go to him when everything is going great. This is such a shame. God is suppose to be my friend. Why can’t I talk to him when things are going great? It just doesn’t make sense.

My prayer life was broken the day my Mom died. I was told if I pray every day God would answer them. Being twenty-one, I didn’t want her to die. What would I do without my Mom? So I selfishly prayed to God that he would not take her from. I guess this is when my hating God came in. Here he took my Mom away. I later learned that he didn’t do it to hurt me.

With Dad it was a different story. I prayed that God will do what his will is. I didn’t want him to die, but there must be a reason. I even prayed for him to take him because I didn’t want him to suffer.

My prayer life has gotten stronger since Dad got sick with pancreatic cancer, but it is not where it needs to be. I still often only go to God when I am in a crunch and need him. I am in constant battles with making myself pray or finding the time to do it when I am alone and have no disruptions.

Thank goodness most of the kindergarten testing is over. We had a great turn out. Only 12 didn’t show up. I have my class list, so I am excited about that. I can’t wait now until school starts. I think my class is going to be great.

I didn’t get sick at all today. Woo Hoo!!! I wasn’t tired. I guess it helps to get out and around. I did great. I also learned that if I unbutton my pants I will feel better. Who would think at 6 weeks your clothes would be smaller?

I am getting excited about the baby now. It was such a shock, I didn’t know what to think. God wanted us to have it now, so we will. He is the one doing the planning, not me.

PS. Angela I won’t put the picture up of you bowling since you based your boards. Congrats.

There are not enough hours in the day. Why can’t there be more? I have done absolutely nothing all day but sleep. I took Michael to work and Ashton to school at 8am. Then I came home and went to sleep. Pick Michael up at 11 for lunch and then back to work. You guess, then I am back to sleep. It is 2:30 and I finally decided to make myself get up. It is crazy how pregnancy can make you so tired. While tomorrow that has to stop. I have to go to work at 7:30 am and test kids for kindegarten.

This weeks sermon was based on James 5:12. You would think that one little verse couldn’t contain so much information. Actually this verse is very packed with advice on life.

Above all, my brothers, do not swear—not by heaven or by earth or by anything else. Let your “Yes” be yes, and your “No,” no, or you will be condemned. James 5:12

So often we tell people we are going to do something. We in turn usually find something that we would like to do better. One may not realize that they are actually doing this. I never really thought much of it until the sermon. How many times have I told someone that I would help them and then turn my back on them because I didn’t feel like it. Sadly, this as happened more times than I want to recall. The other sad thing is that I have done it to loved ones that I care deeply about.

God wants us to make a commitment. When we say yes, we must mean it. Don’t just say yes, and hope that something else will come up so you can’t do it. It is time to stop making excuses for yourself. If you commit you better finish it. God doesn’t like broken promises. This week and the rest of my life, I am going to strive to reach this goal. I want all my yeses to be yeses. I would like to challenge you to do the same thing. I am really going to make this promise to my husband. So often he gets the bunt of my yeses not really meaning yes.