It’s My Wonderful Life

I miss my Dad so much. I just wish he was here. I wish that mean cancer never would have taken him away. He was the last person, I had to talk to about family things. Daddy was so great to me and would do anything for me. I was trully a Daddy’s little girl.

I go for weeks without missing him, but this week has been one of the hardest. So oftern, I have picked up the phone and dialed his number. I would have something exciting to tell him. I would call him every day, even on days that I didn’t need to.

I think this week is very hard because I am so excited about teaching kindegarten and decorating my room. Dad was always there to give me pointers. After all, he did have to take a bulletin board class in college to get his education degree. I just wish he was here.

I am also struggling with fixing to start trying to have another baby. I want to tell him so bad. I know he sees me from heaven, but I want to see him. I just simply miss my Daddy.

Sorry for this sappy blog post, but it grief for Daddy has taken over me. I can’t stand it. I love my Daddy and wish he could come back to me and hold his little girl again. I am praying to get over this grief, but it is hard. I just get so depressed over this matter.

Who rides their bike on a day that is over a 100 degrees? That is right someone very stupid. THE ARNOLD’S. We decided to ride our bike about 7:00 pm. Ashton was cranky and usually riding the bike puts him to sleep. Great idea. (Needless to say, Ashton is still awake.) So we ride our bikes to Suzanne’s to meet those crazy people going outside to play in 100 degree weather. So Ashton got off the bike and played and we got water. Like I said it was hot. It was great riding over there. Then you have to start thinking you have to make the same trip home. You came on bikes, you must leave on bikes. So we pedaled home. It was great until you got to the giant hills. I would like to say that I won’t do it again, but I would being lying. I loved it. Next time I may wear shorts instead of blue jeans.

Today, I got to work in my classroom. I had a meeting with the kindergarten teachers about testing the students in order to place them. After Michael got out of class, he help me set up my room.

I am so excited. I finally have my own room that I get to set up the way that I want. Last year, I filled in for a teacher that left, so there was not much time to make it my own. I got to pick a classroom color and theme. My color is yellow and the theme is Volkswagon Beetles (cars). I am so excited. I am going to go back tomorrow to work more. The only thing I am nervous about is teaching the students. Kindergarten is a whole new world for me. I am sure it will come as easy as first grade did.

I am so excited about school starting. I can’t wait!!!!!

Two post in a day. I did not plan on this post but I feel led to. I finally had quiet time today. I had to write it on my to do list in order to get it done, but I did. I spent time with God. I am going to try to do my devotional that I started back in March. I am on Day 18 so you can see how I kept up with it. The devotion today was on God’s timing. All through this devotion I thought of Mandy. We all go through these times, just right now I am not. Mandy I hope that this devo will help you with your struggle.

Enough Faith for the Holding Pattern by: T. D. Jakes

Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. Psalm 27:14

It is God’s timing that we must learn. He synchronizes His answers to accomplish His purpose. Recently, whil traveling on a major American airline, we were told that the plane could not land at its scheduled time. evidently the air traffic controller insructed that we should wait in the air. What a strange place to have to wait–in the air! I have often felt like the aircraft suspended in the air when God says, “Wait!” Then the captain spoke into the PA system. He said, “We are going to assume a holding pattern until further instructions come from the tower.” After some time, a few rather intoxicated passengers began to question the traffic ontroller’s decision. Perhaps we were all concerned. It’s just that some had their concern lubricated with several stiff shots of rum.

The anxious looks and acidic remarks that came from the crowd subsided as the stewardess quickly eased people’s fears. She informed several worried passengers that the planes always carry enough fuel to withstand the demands of these kinds of delays. There was a calm assurance on the faces of the attendents. I would have to attribute it to the fact that they had prepared for a delay. I began to wonder if we as the children of God shouldn’t be better prepared for those times in our lives when God speaks from His through “Assume a holding pattern until further notice.” The question is not always, “Do you have enough faith to receive?” Sometimes it is this: “Do you have enough faith to assume a holding pattern and wait for the fullfillment of the promise?”

You feel a deep sense of contentment when you know God has not forgotten you. I will never forget the time I went through a tremendous struggle. I thought it was an emergency. I thought I had to have an answer right then. I learned that God isn’t easily spooked by what I call an emergency.

I hope that this may touch some people has much as it did me. The main point I got from this was that….